good

i have been planning about it for more than a week now. the intention has always been there but it's the time that has been playing truant all along. gladly, i did make it today. i bought a cake for ernie's wife.

you see, i found a diet-buddy in the person of ernie. not the muppet. ernie. our reliable foreman in the aircon department which is also under my watch. it's easy to monitor each other's progress (or regress) since we see each other almost everyday. whether he likes it or not, he has to see me and give me updates. every morning. or thru texts or phone calls. whichever prove expedient. but as it proves, it's not only updates that he's been bringing to me every morning. but a pack-lunch as well!!! courtesy of his wife-y. of course, minus the rice.

i must admit that it all started with me. the road to successful weight management can be lonely and frustrating. by encouraging ernie, i am helping myself as well. so started giving him dole outs. you know the instant oatmeal packs. but i was surprised by his response. i've been getting a daily ration since. i know that it's no joke to like including another mouth (or tummy hehe) in one's budget even for one meal a day. my gratitude also goes to his wife who's been graciously extending time, money and effort to send me a pack of mostly veggie-meal every single day, six days a week. no let up.

so when the staff saw me with a box of cake they all screamed in excitement. kala nila sa kanila. sabi ko: hindi ito, ito lang sa inyo, handing them a pack of hopia. hehehe.

well, i do bring 'bobong' for the girls in the admin. regularly, that is. especially when i'm coming from the site in laguna. which is almost everyday hehehe.

i dunno. siguro i was just brought up in an atmosphere where generosity abounds. my mom used to tell me when i was a kid that the best thing that a person can share is the one that hurts him/her the most. may pagka-masokista ata mama ko. hehehe. kaya yun sa spirit of sharing and 'hurting the most' she gave away our house in the province to her nephew na mejo naghihirap. and to top it all, she gave papang away to whoever 'claimant' telling them how grateful she is for taking care of papang despite his ugali. hahaha.

i dunno. siguro genetic din itong generosity. ang tingin ko lang tama yung kasabihan, it's better to give than to receive. that's why i always thank the lord for sending opportunities my way to share whatever little that i have and in however little ways that i can to share everyday.

with this conscious predisposition, it's not far out na maloloko ka. it happened to me several times. sometimes evil intentions win over good. and it's disheartening when it happens. nakakapanghina ng resolve even. but i reckon, kung mawawalan ako ng tiwala sa mga tao, i will grow cynical then what good will it do to me?

maybe i will become a few thousand pesos richer, things will rot in my possession, i will grow callous but at least i'm ok, when people around me get wind of my attitude then i will be at peace walang iistorbo sa akin. but the bottom line in all this...at the end of the day, the same question i will ask myself whenever i respond  do good deeds, am i happy?

chances, i'm not.