belated

it was my mom's birthday last 01 dec. but i decided not to greet her here in my blog as i used to. she doesn't and will never get know about my blog anyway. explain to her what a blog is and she will just smile back at you without trying to understand. she's never into computers to begin with. at 82 and under the degenerative spell of alzheimer's she's got better things in mind. few things that drive and fuel her thoughts through the day.  such as...

- when i'm flying in to see her (she thinks that i'm still working abroad)
- cavite
- lipstick and eyebrow pencil
- rental collection

the list used to be longer. substantial enough. but not anymore. noticeably, the items keep shrinking. i fear for the day when she would earnestly ask me: sino ka?

i decided not to greet and write about mamang in my blog because i wanted her not to grow any older. i don't want the list to shrink anymore. i don't want mamang to slip farther away.

no, not yet.

god, please...